tell you all of her dreams,

we wanted to go swimming today but everytime we want to swim, it is always raining heavily and when we finally decide to cancel or postpone the outing , it stopped raining and the sun is out but too late, we are already busy with something else.

in the end , deborah and i went to VIVO city to watched Letters from Iwo Jima. Before i watched it , i thought it was Letters from Two Jima. omg, luckily when i booked the tickets, i didn t say the movie name out loud.

anyway, Letters from Iwo Jima is the most gruesome show i ever watched. at one point of time where the guy's arm was blown off and the blood spurting out , i was quite shocked but deborah was laughing. omg, so sadistic. when the movie end, i really felt digusted. i can t imagine if i watched the movie " 300 " but it is M18. sheet you all guys out there who is 18 and above. :D

we walked around and i saw chen qiu working at a shop? if she didn t call me , i would have just passed by not knowing she is there. i always seemed to bump into somebody i know whenever i go to Vivo city. i was planning to buy tees today but spent on nothing eventually. deborah and i ate at Carl's Jr for dinner before heading for the movies.

btw, i like this picture a lot .

i like pictures which are done in pen and ink.

i got it from this webby.

http://www.woostercollective.com/

go check it out ! :D

tell me what's worth it then

omg, i have to type this post again. the previous post lagged. dam piece of sheet.

went to east coast beach today and bought a disposable camera for 8 dollars and it can take 27 photos. too bad it is not digital if not i would be posting the pictures here already. anyway i had a great time cycling with deborah goh li ling today, we almost cycle the whole of east coast beach. we were trying to find the stone hedge where yi lin, deborah and i used to hang out the last outing. Finally after cycling for a long time, we found it and deborah picked up a lot of tiny shells . anyway, NG YI LIN i MISS YOU LOTS!

today i spent all my money. but it okay, i had a great time.

i bought an album to put all my photos that i have developed.

time for decorate :D !

a great webby to go :D

www.zefrank.com/scribbler/

it is really good. i got it out from a magazine!

they can create an art just from a simple line that you have drawn from them.

let me show you some of my samples!

from a simple eye, they scribble until it is like some 3D graphic.

if you want to draw an eye like this , leave the eyelashes super long and do not draw a pupil inside, draw the veins instead :D !

check out the gallery later, some works are really good!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAN CONG :D

may the pufferfish explode in your face

by default, i am now the oldest in the household . i am not gloating though the feeling should be good. but what's the point when you can t use the power on anyone. my brother just left for Sydney yesterday night and the house feels empty. due to my stupid phobia of the dark, i can t seem to stay up anymore.

hi korkor! i miss you :D

-ps, don t look at my face. thank you for your attention.

btw, i really love JOSEPH! he is so dam cute and he resembles a lil of pei ling. let me give you a peek of Mr. Universe. Prepare to Ohh and ahh , you may do that at my face too ! :D

i think he is going to be a smart boy in the future! he responds to english, chinese and hokkien languages! omg omg omg ! hahaha and i thought he was going to kiss me but he actually bite my whole cheek with a extra bonus, saliva. i call him SM - Salivating Machine.

gosh, i hope i get to see him again before he flys off to Sydney on tuesday. hmm, everybody seem to be leaving but i am just staying here.

gay new blogger

omg, i finally got a google account! it has been pissing me off lately! and what's so new is that it has this great spelling error detector , telling me that ' omg' and ' google' are of the wrong spelling. very clever and irritating indeed. anyway this month has been rather hectic for me , collecting o level results, JAE poly admission, chinese new year celebration and right now more interviews. Truth is , i am really tired of this . But, life still have to go on because in the end that is what my future might be .

anyway, Singapore poly's direct admission for the creative media design was average. the lecturers didn t talk so much unlike temasek poly. however i had to do an apititude test which is designing t shirt, the front and the back and ALSO the packaging. i really have no say about the 2 interviews because deep down i think i screw up again. bleurgh.

omg, after my interview finished at SP, i walked along the corridors and i know there was this cute guy behind me and all of the sudden he gave a delibrate cough and i turned to look at him and he started talking to me ? WAHHAHA. not bad not bad.

btw, the red lines under some words is getting on my nerves.

later, from Dover travelled all the way down to Tampines and then headed down to Temasek poly to check out the floorball. i am hoping i can get into Tp, the floorball and the design is like dam shiok :D and i heard from uncle sam that NYP floorball is uber good, omg, SINCE WHEN!
and had to go back to serangoon because my father badly desperately wanted to eat porridge. i was really goddamned tired but before that Daniel came to my house to get some stuff that my brother needed to pass to him and once again, i was nervous but as usual, whenever i think he would be there, he woudln t . however, i know i am done doing this, i got to stop giving myself high hopes.

i have already stop working since last week and i am missing some of the kids.



SABRINA

oh boy, she is the one i miss the most! i really love her to bits. i missed her kisses and huggies and how she would run after me , asking me to carry her . she always ask for sweets and she is not good at hide and seek which makes me love her so much.



Yong Xie

although he is freaking naughty , hyper and stubborn, i hate to say it but i miss him . he wears a pink watch , walk like a lil gay and screams instead of talking . haha, he is so cute now that i don t see him everyday. when there is playtime indoor, he never fails to get a toy car and drive it round and round on the table. i love to throw the ball high in the air because he will run like crazy . funny kid.



LOUIS

after teaching him spelling, he love it . though he don t admit it , i know he likes me and miss me :D and to think on my first day of work, i thought he was super irritating. haha, he love to pretend and make stories on how his brain juice always leak out during the night and he hates " hao peng you" and he love it when i read to him stories about ninja mutant turtles and cuddling him when no one is looking.



YI YI

i promised you she will go far in life. she is so smart for her age and she love reading. when she read something interesting , she never fails to show it to me and not to mention , she is a good girl. she even knows the first emperor of China and big vocabulary words that even secondary school student would find it a lil hard ( not saying me :] ) miss you yi yi!



VICKY

i am sorry i made you cry on my last day of work.
i miss you vicky ! :D thanks for all the lil writings that you gave to me , they are really cute ! and don t stress out , it is just a primary 3 exams. haha.



TZE YANG

this boy used to hate me because i gave him a flying kiss. haha, cute. he doesn t like to be near me but during feb, he had no choice because i was drilling him with spelling and english worksheets. choon kiat always say tze yang's eyes are like a small line. haha, quite true.



we are THE VOLUNTEERS :D

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HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY PEI PEI!

your one hell of a pal! :D
love you girl, heard you got a new handphone! hehehe!
sorry i couldn t sing a birthday song over the phone, i was quite pai seh.


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anyway, korkor is leaving on saturday night and now days i don t really have the mood to be happy , not that i am emotional, i am just tired physically and emotionally . double the sluggishness.


I WANT TO GO TO FALL OUT BOYS CONCERT PLEASE!
LOVE FOB LOVE FOB LOVE FOB LOVE FOB LOVE FOB.

i know mummy's not here right now .



hm. pictures of some of the girls in the pearlcare. this was taken weeks ago! but i only edit it now :D hahaha! the last picture is Charmane, the girl that irritates me the most during naptime. the girl in specs is Jolie and the other one is Si ling :D

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SUNDAY!



went to Bishan Deport Open house for a charity cause. we learnt how the trains work and the mechanics and aircondition. I only enjoyed the popcorn and the games part :D haha, then we went out to ang mo kio to eat salted egg crabs with zhi qiang and then i cried again in the morning.

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Today

went to temasek poly to do my J and E and did some direct admission interview which really cause me to be so dam nervous , instead of saying design, i said deslign. omg. then went to tampines mall for dinner at billy bombers and bought 2 sleeveless shirts from espirit.

btw,

yusok ishak is happy when he heard that he was going to eat mee rubus



but when he heard it was out of stock, he was..



ok guys enjoy :D

and yes, i did draw the bananas :D

no harm having fun :D

OH .. look!
an average normal looking edible banana that hangs around in your kitchen , waiting to be pluck off and for you peel their yellow skin and chew them for the vitamins. how boring.



but weirdly enough, when father was busy concentrating on the television and mother gossipping away on the phone while her children quarrelling over who should get the last piece of cake , something magical happened!



a banana popped out of no where and landed on the kitchen counter but a minute later..

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A BANANA FAIRY! WHAT ON EARTH! NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE BUT YES!
such rare event but still.. the most beautiful banana ever. A tiny yet magnificent crown fitting perfectly on her long silky brunette hair. A pair of big adorable sparkling eyes matching with a small cutsy smile. Not only that, keeping herself in the trend, wore a revealing strip top , hoping to catch eyes of other suave banana. Carrying with her is a charming banana wand that cast spells and magical moments and last of all, a pair of hot glittering wings. [ i suddenly thought about yi lin ]

" let give these bananas some life! " she chuckled.
and with a wave of her wand, poof!





yay! and they came alive and started to have a party and all the bananas live bannaily ever after.

The Banaend!

gone, are the waiting of anticipation.

i finally received my results and when i did, my mother burst into tears. i really really coudln t believe it myself at first. Before that, my hands were shaking while signing the paper. All i could think was , that was the crucial moment of my life. And in the end, i am happy with what i have :D though i seriously honestly think i screwed up my combine humanities. Disappointed in myself for that area and i think i upsetted Mr. Wong a lil but he is glad with my overall :D the only C in the certificate looks fugly. And i really studied for my SS and Geog! Wonder which part did i screw up in. Sheet la :[

btw, congrats to deborah and jian wei :D they scored better than me ):
and the rest of my friends :]

Ok, lets see my scores hor :D
hahah, so hao lian >:]

EL - B3

E Math - B3

POA - B3

Chinese - B4 ( I AM SO SURPRISE LOR, DAM :D )

Art - A2

Combine Science- B3

Combine Humans - C6 (ars)

So for R4, i got 14 and R5, i got 20. screwed! >:[
anyway, i can t help it , i seriously can t , but i really missed Richielyn. I heard she went back to Phlippines from Mohana and her father took her results instead. Maybe she is really one of the friends that make a biggest impact in my life and when i told mohana to pass the message of sending her a Happybirthday on Jan31, i dunno whether she really did it . Anyway, i hope she get good results so she can study here :]

But whatever it is, i know both of us have move on with our life whether it is our choice a not . I will just wish her for the best. That's the least i can do anyway.
Lord, Please bless her.

I can tell my mother is really proud of me :] She can t stop telling her friends and my aunties how i scored and urm, how i am the only one that got an distinction in art. Haha, i am relieved. The after effects wasn t so bad and though my father cannot recognise my talents in Art, his statement of ' Very Good' , something so plain, but weigh like a gold bar. Anyway, i am so glad that i am out of the Secondary School stage now , whether good or bad memories, i will treasure them.


Went to School E's house to celebrate and eat steamboat :D
deborah super suay, she is really sick. ahh dam!
then i brought my lil cousins to play basketball and then home.

NO ONE can call me dumb now :D

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Yi Lin , i really really honestly truely miss you! Why is it when we are starting to enjoy ourselve, you have to go back to Australia. Nevertheless, i can t wait for June. I really want to backpack to Australia! Then we go have a wild time with those cute hunky ang mor kias! haha! I will secretly stash in a pair of bikini! :]

i love you with all my heart!

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btw, don t need to work riao :]
my rewards from my uncle and aunties are increasing!
hhahaha!

melon head :[



sigh. i just cut my hair yesterday and the front part looks like that. i know it sounds a lil weird, but yeah ): it is so odd, but i love my back part :D hm, i think i was too kay kiang. i thought it would look okay , who knew my hair would curl to the side of my face.

then wee kiat say deborah prettier than me . hey, wee kiat, it hurts okay.
now, i lack confidence in myself, thanks to him. shet. don t dare to face people now. think i should wear a cap from tomorrow onwards.

a lot of funny things happen today. but today one primary 6 kid scolded me the f word because i whack him on his leg as he was making so much noise and he didn t say sorry sincerely. it was seriously upsetting and when ms siok yan reprimanded him, he took so long to apolegise. oh well.

caleb spilled milo today because i joked with him about a pear . so funny. then he still say, i will send you the bill tomorrow because his pants had milo stains on it . then, i told him to teach louis while i teach tzu yang and after that louis complain that this korkor teach until so lao ya. i laugh until bth.

anyway, not going to work tomorrow :D going to spend time with NG YI LIN :]

btw, on the way back home was a painful walk as my knee acted up again. it was so stiff , i could barely walk. sigh, an old injury. i almost sat on the floor and cry but i just dragged myself home.
then, as i was about to change my goldfishes's water. i realised there were only 2 , one died. Why is it when something die, i am not there or maybe don t even know about it until so much later. hm, so one 'mo' is gone. ):


so sad D:
and i really really like them so much D:

/edited.

forgot to write about wee kiat touching my butt accidentally.
he still can smile after that, dunno whether is he shuang or like he say , my expression very funny. still can say, my butt no shape. bth .

this type of friend also have! >;[

february, a new month :D

argh. i seriously dread this month because i am collecting my results soon. i keep having this reoccuring fear that my L1R4 would be above 20 and even then, it is not the worse, it is the after effect that takes place, showing my family. i am so scared. i am so afraid that my ugly score would get my into troubles and my future is gone - already knowing from many people that Visual Communication is a course that is hard to get you jobs later. I really dunno what to do now , all i can do is just fret. If i am kicked out of the house because of my horrible results, will anyone let me in?

I can t stand myself being 'bop' down again and again and again but i mean, that's the way it is . My forte was never in studies but a subject that Singapore had never taken this issue as a importance - Sports. So right now , i feel like i am in a no man island. I know people will still love me for whatever results that i have , but will the people still look at me the same way before? and not treat me like some low down shit? i can t take this crap anymore, it is simply boggling my mind. But i know for sure, if my results are no good, problems at home is sure to catch fire again, and once again, i will feel like a fcuked up burden.

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February 2nd

off to whitesands after work at the daycare center to have dinner with deborah and Macdonalds. their new prosperity meal is not bad :D my total favourite because it is blackpepper and it is HOT HOT HOT :] i love! after that, took a train down to Simei and bought a lil snacks from 7-11 and ran under the MRT tracks like crazy because we thought there was a bangala following us and luckily korkorwee came to fetch us! we ate ice cream, twisties , watched Survivor and played table tennis before we headed upstairs. Deborah and i were supposed to sleep in the guest room but ah kim found 2 cockroaches and we slept in the master bedroom instead. Halfway through the night, i confiscated Deborah's bolster and used it as my pillow instead. The pillow was so hard , like those in the olden days of China. HAHAHA.



the train down to Simei was very empty :D
btw, deborah lie until so sexy while i lie like some dead corpse.

February 3rd

woke up and had chicken rice at some bedok place with Ah gu, Ah kim , Yi Lin , Deborah and I. later went to shop and save for a while and headed back to Yi Lin's house. We played make up later :D i love lor! i seriously think i look good with thick eyeliner around my eye like avril lavinge! we did deborah's one first , then me , then yi lin. later korkor wee did for yuan yin. not bad la :D we took a photo together . my standing position is so weird.



deborah, jy, yi lin and yuan yin :D



my make up pattern drawn by NG YI LIN



they are called curry leaves to cook in the curry



i like this picture a lot :D


we wanted to do for korkor wee but he ran away. sigh, i was so excited too. later we had to bath and changed into pretty clothes and headed down to Orchid country club for CNY dinner and then we went back to Deborah's house for a game of mahjongs and chatting for the kids :D
we reached home about 2am, i was so tired, i fell asleep after plonking myself on the bed.

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February 4th

went to church today and deborah and I isolated ourselves from the crowd and sat upstairs alone . I felt a lil comfortable that way and i wrote lots of notes. Later we took a bus down to suntec city and a train down to orchard to meet up with Yi lin. we walked around a lil, watched Once in a Summer. Sigh, the guy in the movie is so romantic unlike singaporeans guy here. I love his smile lor. Ate desserts at Swenson and took a slow walk back to the train station. Korkor fetched me from the bus stop because the walk home is a lil dark and before that i saw Li Zhen and i miss her so much :D

Yi lin is going back soon and we just started to have fun :[



don t want to put this picture big big ): , later people think i zi lian but honestly i am taking pictures to see how i look like this artistic make up. nothing more and nothing less :D but i think i look good :D or maybe even better than good! HAHAHA.

gosh. i have to take care of 30 kids tomorrow.



1 , 2 , 3 , DAO!
btw, i design Deborah's and Yi Lin 's make up pattern?
nice not :D comments okay!